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“Dada duta dangor gakhir saa diok …”, Abhijeet shouts out to Tushar da in Assamese even as he knows that both of them are Bengalis. He sits down at his favourite table in the University canteen to talk to Neha, who is from Bihar and is all curious as to what this protest against the Citizenship Amendment Act is all about. She is not able to understand how the anti-CAA movement in Assam is different from everywhere else in India. The melancholy of the breezy day quite matches the frame of mind Abhijeet is in. As he laments the opening up of long-buried wounds, he cannot but recollect his experience of growing up in Shillong. “Realities for me are different Neha, while I understand the just Assamese right to protect their cultural identity, my opinions are clouded by what I have seen.”
It was Shillong of the 1990s when rock and roll meant
rebellion and India was an accident. The locals would proudly exclaim – Khasi
by blood, Indian by accident! Abhijeet had had his upbringing in a distinctive
Bengali household and as is for most Bengali children from Shillong, the
parents want their children to get a life and leave the place. This meant
Abhijeet was educated in some of the best educational institutes in the city. His
English education and an elitist peer group had shaped an identity that was the
epitome of the quintessential Macaulay Putra. He hated being the Bengali he was
– never spoke in the language and when he did, ensured that he spoke an
anglicized version of it.
As he spoke to Neha – “Dekhiye Neha ji, the nature of
the politics in the North-Eastern region is such that, unless one has stayed
here for some good time, it is very tough to understand. You see, the Indian
state is looked upon as a colonial entity by many in the region, which is why …”.
“What are you saying Abhijeet? We are one country, are we not? We are all part
of India, are we not?” she interjected Abhijeet, with a perplexed look.
Abhijeet, in his calm tone, responded – “It is not so simple Neha Ji ...”
The primordial nature of the politics of Shillong meant
that a clear distinction was created between the indigenous and the
non-indigenous. Much to the dismay of Abhijeet’s diligent attempts to fit in –
there would be these random sleazy comments – “Ei meh Dkhar, kwah liah?”. He
had learned to ignore the taunts but somewhere, his pride of being a
third-generation resident of the beautiful hill state was always hurt. Growing
up in Shillong he could never understand why he had to be ‘the other’. With
time though certain things just fell into perspective. In a spat, that Abhijeet
had over social media, it was brought to his notice that the Bengalis were
indeed an extension of the colonial arm. The anonymous profile which was very
lenient with the use of expletives such as ‘boiragoto’ and ‘kala babu’, made it
quite clear to Abhijeet that he was the progeny of a people who were brought in
by the British to run the offices of the British establishment after the
signing of the Treaty of Yandaboo in 1826.
“Well, well, well… Neha Ji, Assam was not part of
India for a very long time. While the British were already ruling parts of
India directly or indirectly, the state of Assam came under the British
umbrella only in the year 1826”. Neha in her agitated tone went on to argue
“but how does that matter, Abhijeet, we fought for the Indian independence
together. You guys are as much a part of the Indian imagination as much as we
are”. Abhijeet, steadily sipping his tea remarked “I guess you should then tell
this to the people who have been protesting against your CAA and your attempt
to consolidate the Indian imagination on the lines of Hindu nationalism. As far
as my Bengali identity is concerned, trust me, this CAA debacle has made it
worse for us than it ever was. There used to be a distinction between illegal
and legal migrants, now, we just don’t know. In this competitive scouring for
resources, I think communal conflict is inescapable.”
Abhijeet had seen his fair share of conflict. He was
too young when the 1992 violence against Biharis had happened in Shillong but
he definitely knew something was off when everyone in his family would return
home before 6 PM in the evening. Visiting relatives and friends was also a
before 6 PM affair. Indeed, the five days a week curfew was fun because the school
would only be for two days, yet somewhere the restricted movement did make an
impression on young Abhijeet. Horror stories of ‘chintai’, a term used for
robbing as well as random stabbings and murders did not make things better.
“I don’t have anything to say Abhijeet, it’s like you
guys deliberately do not want to integrate to the Indian national imagination”.
Neha seemed very agitated as she made the statement. The big glasses of tea
were also over. Tushar da had already taken notice of the heated conversation
and so when he saw that tea was over – he came over and provided a breather –
“aru duta saa di diu?”, nervous energy to him, probably wondering as to why
the CAA is being spoken about with such blatant carelessness, especially by a
Bengali. While for some, CAA was a topic of loud debate, some preferred to keep
their opinions, private, fearing retribution or being simply tagged as the
‘boiragoto’. “Saar logot eta aloo paratha - o - di dibo”, Abhijeet responded to
Tushar da. “Hobo, hobo ... di asu Obizit, Madamor karone ki dim?”, “Kuch nahi
chahiye Tushar da, aap inko khilaiye” and the moment she said that Abhijeet
burst out laughing – “Oh toh you can understand Assamese?”. “Yes, why not, I
have been here for three years now and I would have learned the language, it’s
just that we can easily get by with Hindi here,” Neha responded. Abhijeet
smirked – “Hah, how I wish you stayed in the south of India for some time, you
would have really enjoyed it although I do have one question – can I get by
speaking in Assamese or Bengali in Patna?” Neha just smiled.
Abhijeet had had a very interesting experience of
having done his post-graduate studies and then going on to work for some time
in South India but unfortunately, his knowledge of Tamil was only limited to –
“Anna Tamil teriyada, only English” and only sometimes when tea was at stake,
he would go to the tea shop and say – “Anna oru tea kurunge”. Unlike the
Assamese language, Tamil was not as phonetically as close to Bengali after all.
Somewhere in his mind, this escape to South India, was a welcome change from a
sense of inferiority he faced throughout his life in North-East India. Here, no
one knew him and so he could be anyone he wanted to be but like all good things
must end, this had to, too. Next was a teaching assignment, he took up in Punjab
but could only last there for a year. Punjab, with its beautiful paddy fields,
warm people and a rich food culture is an amazing place to be and yet there was
this void. The lingering sense of nostalgia of the scenes of untouched greenery
in North-East was too overwhelming for him to let go. Up until now, he was not
sure what home was but was this the feeling of home that he had been searching
for?
“Ok tell me one thing, Abhijeet, why is it that,
people who are evidently so right-wing in their ideology seem to be against the
CAA, in Assam?” asked Neha. “Haha… Yahi toh na Neha ji, this is why we are from
here and evidently, you are not. Sip some tea Neha. Sip some tea.” By now Neha
was a little agitated – “Are you telling me or not? This is not a date; I am
not enjoying the chase.” Abhijeet with his nonchalant flamboyance – “You’re a
heart breaker Neha, I had already started planning the name of our kids.” Neha
wasn’t going to let that comment go – “and what did you plan on naming them? Lal
Saa and Gakhir Saa? Tum se toh aur kuch ho nahi payega.”
Now that embarrassed Abhijeet – “Neha Ji, ok let me then
tell you – you have rightly noted that people who seem to otherwise have a very
right-wing ideological leaning, in this case, oppose the CAA which is a flagship
project of the right-wing central government and this is in consonance with the
stance of the ideological left.” “Exactly that’s what I have been trying to
tell you Abhijeet, these scotch drinking savarna socialists are already a joke
and then you have your regionalists going around following their lead. Yes, the
so-called government at the centre might be the fascist that you people tag
them to be but at least they are trying to build a unified national imagination”,
Neha with all her passion had made an extremely valid point.
Abhijeet didn’t really know how to react to this even
so he wanted to get his point across. He went on - “I understand your concerns
Neha but as Ambedkar had pointed out unless there is a will to stay together,
you cannot force a collective imagination on a group of people. Whether they
are artificial bonds or artificial boundaries they will eventually dissolve.
Coming back to the question of CAA, well like I said the regional right is in
consonance with the national left – if you really want to understand their
stance, you will have to ask them what they feel about the NRC. It might be
very interesting for you that while they oppose the CAA, they support the NRC
and it is here that they differ with the national left. The regional right does
not want any more Bengalis to be legalised as Indian citizens which is why they
oppose the CAA but they support the NRC so that they are able to detect illegal
immigrants and even if they complete the process, they will always have that
sword hanging over people of Bengali origin by way of not accepting the NRC.
This is purely about power.”
Neha kept her silence for a moment and then she asked
Abhijeet, “Is this why you refrain from speaking in Bengali?” Abhijeet, in his
discomfort and trying his best to hide it, “Well, you know Neha ji, even if I
wanted to speak in Bengali to fellow Bengalis in this region, they will
probably not reciprocate. It’s already an hour and we have already finished two
glasses of tea. Since you said that it isn’t a date, I think we should get back
to work”. Neha smiled and as her eyes glanced over the half-eaten paratha, she
said “yeah sure.”
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